Thursday, August 24, 2006
I've been feeling very down for this week. I feel very alone.
My judo isnt good enough. I must work harder. I must get over with grading, then concentrate on shiai. I must try to train myself such that judo is my 2nd natural instinct, even outside training, so that i can defend myself. I must strengthen my body. Weixiang is my role model. Seeing how he can fight even yan jun, i hope to be able like him. And another thing is, i observed that i am training and interacting less with my batchmates. Is it out of fear or out of despise? I dunno.
I realised that there is rare such thing as a best friend. More and more ppl are out to get me, to ruin my life, and take away everything i have, even my pride. I must FIGHT to keep them.
Im planing to do lots of mugging and training during the free time that is coming. I must fight to keep my rafflesian dream alive, to do well in studies and to make an achievement. Now its not a dream, its a fight, a rat race.
I may be faltering, i may be tired, but i noe God will be there for me in all that i do, and he will lead me on.
@ 8:06 PM
